Balneário Camboriú| City trips brazil

I am sitting at the airport waiting for my flight so why not share a little city post. Two weeks ago we visited Balneário Camboriú and stayed with a group of people in a school. I took a few snaps and as always I would love to share them.
I loved the city. It has a rio de janeiro vibe to it- saying that: I actually never visited Rio. Anyways, back to Camboriú.
It has many Skyscrapers, blocks, cafés, it an oceanside city like Rio and attracts many day-trippers and tourists.  I love the noise, the crowded places and endless shops covered in a cooling salty breeze. I usually avoid group events and crowds. They make me anxious but sometimes big cities also bring some anonymity and an opportunity  to observe and just receive random Impression (and photograph strangers…)

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Some saturday beach day shots

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p.s.: same thing with airports – Traveling makes me super anxious when it gets stressy, but at the same time it grabs my heart and relaxes me somehow… Apparently  it is easier for me to be real when I am on my own. No trying to please over here.

and in the spirit of traveling

peace out  ha

Mel

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Beach day| new year

img_1466-2One of my new years resolutions is getting a new camera and investing more into my blog…. it especially bothers me because I love photography so much. But for know my iphone will do… Here are some seaside shots.

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xx Mel

Aït Benhaddou| roadtrips

dscn1910-2Some of you might know Aït Benhaddou. Several films have been shot there like Prince of Persia, The Mummy , Son of God, Babel, scenes from Game of Thrones and others. It is a village on the route between Marrakech and the Sahara. It is a small village, perfect example for eathern clay architecture. The village  is a great stopping point on roadtrips although I wouldn’t make it a sightseeing priority. Next stop is Merzouga… Continue reading “Aït Benhaddou| roadtrips”

Atlas mountains| what to pack when backpacking

There is a point while traveling where you don’t care what you look like anymore and you start wearing whatever feels comfortable. That’s clearly what happened to me. I always pack far too many things and end up wearing the same outfits everyday. Essentials to pack on a trip are sleeping bag, shirts, cardigan, the jacket you are wearing, 2 pairs of trousers, 2 shorts, 2 tops, bikini, journal, camera, book, your skincare products in  100ml travel sized containers which you can get at any drugstore, (SUNSCREEN!!),small batiste dry shampoo comes in handy, sunglasses and a small decent amount of make up. Continue reading “Atlas mountains| what to pack when backpacking”

Marrakech| morrocan memories

We traveled to Morocco quite some time ago. But I am still editing and watching back pictures of that trip, so here it is: A small moroccan picture recap. We landed in Marrakech and stayed in a lovely hostel called Amour d’Auberge. It was small but lovely and had a nice rooftop where breakfast was served. Marrakech was absolutely stunning…big markets, fresh orange juice, alleyways filled with people,shops and market stands. It can be quite intemidating though, I’m not gonna lie…Just keep an eye on your purse and be careful and you shall be fine 😉 Continue reading “Marrakech| morrocan memories”

Lost & Found | summerday shots

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I am not a professional photographer and I do not always have the means to transport my message or a feeling through a picture but at times I’m trying to improve my skills with lower quality tools. I will buy a good camera next year though (not being able to express my creativity properly bothers me!)… I just wanted to share a few travel shots. Nothing too exiting but I am currently playing with Lightroom to prepare myself for next year. So far I love it…. One thing that bothers me about vsco-cam is not being able to have more control over the color adjustments.  Don’t get me wrong- I love vsco-cam and I know that it’s a pretty good app for snapshots but I am always a little bit picky with photos and I guess I just wanted to have photoshop. This is a picture post, so I’ll stop rambeling.

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Love Mel

Location| Brasil, SC Oceanside

 

 

Falling out of love|the art of pretending you’re not

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I do not know much …but i feel like falling out of love is not possible. I believe that we can have a crush on someone or like someone very much and realize afterwards that you were not compatible at all. But I don’t think that love  has the ability to stop.

And Somehow i believe that the reasons why relationships grew cold and you distance yourself from one another is all the little things you never talked about. The hard words, the insensible way you talk to someone, the making fun of them, the not-listening, the not-asking, the not-believing-in-their-dreams,manliness or… soul. The not-taking serious-their hurt, the loosing-your-fascination-for-them, the questioning-their-heart when all they need is someone who listens. And especially the not-saying-and-meaning-sorry….
All those things left unspoken.
I am not saying that speaking them out saves anything because maybe you never felt like there was a safe space to open up….

But to be honest I think I really don’t believe that falling out of love exists….A stop-liking-someone or a stop-caring …but a stop-loving-someone? Is it true love’s nature to ever stop?

I feel like this could easily be misunderstood. By know means I’m saying  you should stay with a person who is doing you no good, but after all maybe this wasn’t love at all.

I think true love is an exception from everything you know.

And I am also scared to believe that this is really true but I would rather pour out my heart to believe it than settle for anything less.
I don’t need to find „a“ boyfriend or date „somebody“. I just need you – the Love of my life. And that is a person not  a somebody. I really don’t get the whole idea of dating. I just don’t get it.

It’s almost portrait as some essential activity you have to partake in. Constantly throwing yourself out there in search for someone. But isn’t this a little ridiculous, opening up constantly to someone who stays a few weeks, month or just one day.
I just don’t get it. Why would I do that to yourself, and why is this considered to be normal?

You fall in love with a person . A someone. And you start liking them because of who they are.

They are not just a boyfriend/ a girlfriend/a husband/ a wife or otherwise everybody could take their place. You fall in love because their is nobody like them. And if it is so, maybe it will never stop and never let you forget.
Even if life seems to prove so often that love or faint doesn’t exist, somehow against all logic I still believe it does. I believe that everything happens for a reason. And I do believe most people secretly do too. even the so called „pessimists“ are just people who’s dreams have been shattered to pieces by life. Because sometimes I feel like I am that person that secretly is still hopes. You can’t make you heart stop hoping, dreaming… can you?
It’s just the mind that gets convinced easily… the heart still believes…

If you think now that this way of thinking sounds awfully romantic, then I have to say…It is. haha…

But maybe it doesn’t equal being unrealistic. We will see, I will report back in 40 years.

Love Mel (Picture was taken on the day that I had the worst hike of my life)

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P.s.: Lately I am a little obsessed with Beau Taplin’s writings… I think he has such a unique breathtaking way of putting things…I like the way he seems to think sometimes…

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Wanderlust | traveling thailand

Visiting Thailand was quiete an experience for me. While spending some time in a children’s home I got to know some songs and most of them are in thai but there was one song that really got to me. It was so comforting to see those little ones singing those words.

It is such an interesting culture and so different from europe. And be aware of those hot sauces, cause they are kinda …hot.  Especially the dark ones. We called them black death. Or otherwise little thai kids will make fun of you for coughing while chili is burning down your throat like fire. Continue reading “Wanderlust | traveling thailand”

Anxiety Culture | visiting Brasil

“Remind yourself that you don’t have to do what everyone else is doing”

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Brasil is a beautiful country.  There is something about traveling that makes me feel incredibly lost and hopeful at once. Everything is new and different from what you are used to. And I feel a little bit more ok with being who I am.
I feel like in Brasil a job is a job whereas in Germany a job is somehow connected to your value and social status. Sometimes I feel a bit out of place here because I am not able to meet the standard. Being different and seeing things differently is not something people are comfortable with.

 

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When I travel I feel like I am not less but equal. Like we have the same value. And the distance makes me realize how unreal and insignificant this society actually is. Everybody is lost in their own world. They judge people and things by what they know. And if they see something they don’t understand it is automatically wrong.  And I get that it is scary to get out of your comfort zone. Not having any securities. Not knowing what tomorrow brings. We want to feel save and secure  about tomorrow… But it is scary to think that someday when those securities fall apart we will see that this so called securities are nothing more than illusions that kept us busy.  Busy from thinking, busy from being alone with ourselves, busy from living. Don’t get me wrong, I do not claim that I figured it all out. I just think that it’s dangerous to assume that our securities are actually secure.

 

If someone likes our pictures, it doesn’t mean that we get approval. If we have many friends on facebook, it doesn’t mean that we actually have many friends. Looking good doesn’t mean that our heart is beautiful. All these things are not real…We all know that but somehow they are still able to influence us as tho they are. This is not about shaming social media. It is about showing that our way of thinking is not necessarily  right just because everybody around us lives the same way.

Seeing other places puts things into perspective and what matters in Germany doesn’t seem to matter here when I stare at the horizon of endless waters. When I see the ocean, nothing seems to matter anymore and for a brief moment I feel lost. I am confronted with myself. And suddenly the reality of this moment seems to be more real than the lies and pressure I am used to feel.

 

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The wise speak only of what they know – J.R.R Tolkien

Love Ifanwy

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P.S.: I stole the headline idea from somebody else…I don’t know what their article was about tho…