Being all in | midnight pondering poetry

You wanna get to know me? Show me all of who you are and then some more. Unveil your fears and joys, Let them loose…falling into arms that are willing to hold and discover your soul.

Let your mind unfold before my eyes, show me that this is what you want. No holding back.
This is what safety feels like. Seeing you letting yourself fall into this. Into love.
This is what it takes to dig deep into a persons soul and mind.


We never started|

Jemwisper’s compilation of movie scenes and cutouts .   I think this is heart- gripping art…  telling a story … making people cry… hope…feel! This particular edit is called ‘we never started’ …  Thought I might share it with you guys.


It is what it is| poetry picks

Just had some thoughts on love these past couple of days…. That maybe sometimes we need to let go the idea of how it should have happened and how it is supposed to be and just let it be what it is…

This would mean to aknowledge and believe that everything happens for a reason…and that everything is okay… right now …right here…  between loosing myself and loosing what I love …  I don’t know what to do … Truth is, nobody knows you like you know yourself. No one knows if you are at peace or about to compromise..  The hardest thing is to see everything as it is… all cards on the table dear self. And if confusion is everything there is for now, than let it be  confusion … and wait. Wait and see.

No rushing into compromises….And no letting go… Giving it time to unfold into whatever it’s supposed to become…mh …


I thought I might share a poem from one of my favourite poets Erich Fried…. The way he writes about love just gets to you…well at least it gets to me.

Although I can’t find a translation of my favourite poem, I thought about including this one…


What it is

It is nonsense
says reason
It is what it is
says love

It is calamity
says calculation
It is nothing but pain
says fear
It is hopeless
says insight
It is what it is
says love

It is ludicrous
says pride
It is foolish
says caution
It is impossible
says experience
It is what it is
says love


Falling out of love|the art of pretending you’re not


I do not know much …but i feel like falling out of love is not possible. I believe that we can have a crush on someone or like someone very much and realize afterwards that you were not compatible at all. But I don’t think that love  has the ability to stop.

And Somehow i believe that the reasons why relationships grew cold and you distance yourself from one another is all the little things you never talked about. The hard words, the insensible way you talk to someone, the making fun of them, the not-listening, the not-asking, the not-believing-in-their-dreams,manliness or… soul. The not-taking serious-their hurt, the loosing-your-fascination-for-them, the questioning-their-heart when all they need is someone who listens. And especially the not-saying-and-meaning-sorry….
All those things left unspoken.
I am not saying that speaking them out saves anything because maybe you never felt like there was a safe space to open up….

But to be honest I think I really don’t believe that falling out of love exists….A stop-liking-someone or a stop-caring …but a stop-loving-someone? Is it true love’s nature to ever stop?

I feel like this could easily be misunderstood. By know means I’m saying  you should stay with a person who is doing you no good, but after all maybe this wasn’t love at all.

I think true love is an exception from everything you know.

And I am also scared to believe that this is really true but I would rather pour out my heart to believe it than settle for anything less.
I don’t need to find „a“ boyfriend or date „somebody“. I just need you – the Love of my life. And that is a person not  a somebody. I really don’t get the whole idea of dating. I just don’t get it.

It’s almost portrait as some essential activity you have to partake in. Constantly throwing yourself out there in search for someone. But isn’t this a little ridiculous, opening up constantly to someone who stays a few weeks, month or just one day.
I just don’t get it. Why would I do that to yourself, and why is this considered to be normal?

You fall in love with a person . A someone. And you start liking them because of who they are.

They are not just a boyfriend/ a girlfriend/a husband/ a wife or otherwise everybody could take their place. You fall in love because their is nobody like them. And if it is so, maybe it will never stop and never let you forget.
Even if life seems to prove so often that love or faint doesn’t exist, somehow against all logic I still believe it does. I believe that everything happens for a reason. And I do believe most people secretly do too. even the so called „pessimists“ are just people who’s dreams have been shattered to pieces by life. Because sometimes I feel like I am that person that secretly is still hopes. You can’t make you heart stop hoping, dreaming… can you?
It’s just the mind that gets convinced easily… the heart still believes…

If you think now that this way of thinking sounds awfully romantic, then I have to say…It is. haha…

But maybe it doesn’t equal being unrealistic. We will see, I will report back in 40 years.

Love Mel (Picture was taken on the day that I had the worst hike of my life)

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P.s.: Lately I am a little obsessed with Beau Taplin’s writings… I think he has such a unique breathtaking way of putting things…I like the way he seems to think sometimes…