Falling out of love|the art of pretending you’re not

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I do not know much …but i feel like falling out of love is not possible. I believe that we can have a crush on someone or like someone very much and realize afterwards that you were not compatible at all. But I don’t think that love  has the ability to stop.

And Somehow i believe that the reasons why relationships grew cold and you distance yourself from one another is all the little things you never talked about. The hard words, the insensible way you talk to someone, the making fun of them, the not-listening, the not-asking, the not-believing-in-their-dreams,manliness or… soul. The not-taking serious-their hurt, the loosing-your-fascination-for-them, the questioning-their-heart when all they need is someone who listens. And especially the not-saying-and-meaning-sorry….
All those things left unspoken.
I am not saying that speaking them out saves anything because maybe you never felt like there was a safe space to open up….

But to be honest I think I really don’t believe that falling out of love exists….A stop-liking-someone or a stop-caring …but a stop-loving-someone? Is it true love’s nature to ever stop?

I feel like this could easily be misunderstood. By know means I’m saying  you should stay with a person who is doing you no good, but after all maybe this wasn’t love at all.

I think true love is an exception from everything you know.

And I am also scared to believe that this is really true but I would rather pour out my heart to believe it than settle for anything less.
I don’t need to find „a“ boyfriend or date „somebody“. I just need you – the Love of my life. And that is a person not  a somebody. I really don’t get the whole idea of dating. I just don’t get it.

It’s almost portrait as some essential activity you have to partake in. Constantly throwing yourself out there in search for someone. But isn’t this a little ridiculous, opening up constantly to someone who stays a few weeks, month or just one day.
I just don’t get it. Why would I do that to yourself, and why is this considered to be normal?

You fall in love with a person . A someone. And you start liking them because of who they are.

They are not just a boyfriend/ a girlfriend/a husband/ a wife or otherwise everybody could take their place. You fall in love because their is nobody like them. And if it is so, maybe it will never stop and never let you forget.
Even if life seems to prove so often that love or faint doesn’t exist, somehow against all logic I still believe it does. I believe that everything happens for a reason. And I do believe most people secretly do too. even the so called „pessimists“ are just people who’s dreams have been shattered to pieces by life. Because sometimes I feel like I am that person that secretly is still hopes. You can’t make you heart stop hoping, dreaming… can you?
It’s just the mind that gets convinced easily… the heart still believes…

If you think now that this way of thinking sounds awfully romantic, then I have to say…It is. haha…

But maybe it doesn’t equal being unrealistic. We will see, I will report back in 40 years.

Love Mel (Picture was taken on the day that I had the worst hike of my life)

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P.s.: Lately I am a little obsessed with Beau Taplin’s writings… I think he has such a unique breathtaking way of putting things…I like the way he seems to think sometimes…

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